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Thoughts of...

SPEARFix

Monday, April 18, 2005

It happened last night.The heart was stabbed with pain once again.

I wanted to show my concern for her and let her know that I would still be there.
I wanted to pass her some snacks to last her through her study sessions.
Yet, as it always happens on Tv shows and movies,the pain would start all over again.
As I walked out of the lift,hoping to see her, I saw the both of them sitting opposite each other.He was holding her hand and they looked so happy together.As much as my heart wept and bled, I had to grin and smile.In the end, I left the stuff on the table saying it was for the both of them.Words cannot describe the feelings I had.Yet I knew it would happen again.She would be together with him.It would tear me apart.

I cannot and must not give up.I would endure my pain as best as I can.
My pain of seeing the girl that I love being together with another man.
Words are insufficient.

fucked off the world at x 11:29 PM