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Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Love Long Lost
By Adam L. Stanley, poem incomplete


For most people, it will happen only once in a lifetime

and by the time they realize it ...



Love, long lost

the kind of love that makes you giddy on the inside

that inspires you to do things you would never have done

to think things you have never thought

to feel things you have never felt before



Love, long lost

that makes you forget all logic and reason

it confuses you, making you surrender all

your passion overwhelms you and you feel trapped

unable to breath and afraid to die



Love, long lost

you miss her so much it hurts

though countless attempts at reunion

on both her and your account fail

and other relationships blossom



Love, long lost

romance came and blinded you

made you think love was not enough

made you reach out for someone else

and created a permanent misery



Love, long lost

the humanity of never being satisfied

not knowing how good it was

how good it could be

the pain that would come with her absence



Love, long lost

no matter the miles of separation

nor the resolve of each to move us

the bond always there

pulling, tugging, distracting



Love, long lost

not knowing the future, yet crippled by the past

fearing we/her/me/us would never be

or worse never be as good as the first time

though nothing else will ever come close



Love, long lost

pained by communication yet longing

for a contact of any kind

a phone call or a letter, returned

needing to hear the voice or smell her perfume



Love, long lost

desiring that she only be happy

even if no longer contented by me

that tears are no more and joy overwhelms her,

though I be anguished with thoughts of her love for another



Love, long lost

this kind of love happens only once in your life

And once you lose it, it's long lost

And it hurts like a constant piercing of your heart

more than any poem, finished or otherwise, can explain.


A poem I found online.
Makes the pain more acute.
Wish that things be different.
Yet ...

fucked off the world at x 9:34 AM