Today
Today is the saturday of the third weekend of the exams.
The exams have stretched too long.
It is taking its toll on me.
Exam fatigue setting in insidiously.
Not to mention the effects of the mutual split as she so put it.
She is in a relationship with him now.
Saw that status on her friendster.
Though expecting it to be so,
it was still something which reminded me of the pain.
Over the past week, I have been trying to chat with people and trying to get moving.
It has been helpful to have people listening to me.
Yet when I'm alone,
I still think of her.
As much as I want to be by her side,
She has someone new now.
And they are happy.She is happy.
Bittersweet feeling I have,
knowing that she is happy yet I'm not the one there for her.
I know she can't let me back in her heart right now.
But I know it will be a tough and long wait.
A day is like a year.
Sometimes I really don't know what to do.
I know I will treat her better and love her more if she comes back.
But that if is a big one.
And it is giving me hell.
I know we can't predict the future.
I really want to have a second chance with her.
But I got to let go of her first.
Letting go is the most difficult part.
So torn...
The fear and the uncertainty.
I have faith. I have belief.
But sometimes I wish there is a sign.
To guide me.